Did I Just Waste My Time?

I feel like I have wasted many years of my life with this man. He wanted to get married, and I wanted to wait. I should have listened to that "gut" feeling I had and held off on tying the knot. But no, my heart was willing and anxious to be with this man til death-do-us-part. At first, the marriage was wonderful. I guess that's called the honeymoon phase. But even after that wore down, we were still alright. We had our daughter and about the time that she was 2 yrs old was possibly when things started going downhill. I spent countless days, months, years of my life being a good wife to him. I look at things now, and I wonder if anything could have changed his cheating on me. He didn't cheat on me in the beginning, so what in the world changed things to make him think it was alright to do this to me? It saddens me to think that I just wasted my time on this marriage, even hoping that things would have worked out for us. Did I waste my precious time?

What About Me?

I ask this very important question because I haven't really thought about me. I was always thinking about him. I worried over what dinner I was going to cook for him, making the house look nice "for him" and paying the bills for him. At what time did I take for me? I guess I really didn't, but I should have. Now that I look back, everything that I did for him really wasn't worth my time. It didn't keep him from cheating on me, and it certainly didn't help our marriage any. Hind site is pretty important, I only wished I could have seen it before it got here.

When Families Break Apart

When we get married, we have children, hoping that our marriages will last forever, til death do us part, and then comes having children. We have our children, watch them grow, nurture them until they are able to become responsible adults, and even when they do, we still watch after them as they have their own families and go on with life. But, what happens when our marriages break apart? What happens to our families and our children? Starting over, is indeed one of the hardest things in life to have to do. We become so used to being married and having a partner to help us with the good times and bad, that we suddenly have to find our way on our own. How can we make it on our own? What if you don't have a job to support yourself? What if you don't have any money? Those questions are very important and need answers. Finding a family member, or a trusted friend can indeed help you with those answers. Look for help, either from a clergy, or great sites like the one at http://divorce360.com

The Other Woman Must Be His Priority Now.....

I guess now that we are apart, the other woman must be his highest priority now. He still has not called or come over to see our daughter. It's been more than a month. Our daughter is growing into such a lovely young woman, but she still longs to hear from and see her father. He is missing out on a very special daughter. I don't understand why he cannot take a few minutes out of his day to at least call her. Maybe the "other woman" is more important in his life, I don't know, but it's very sad.

A Holiday He Missed With Our Daughter

Getting through the Thanksgiving Holiday turned out to be pretty alright indeed. I went through my normal routine, kids all come back home except for one, and dinner went well. My only gripe is, that my daughter's dad (my ex) didn't even call her once. No phone call to see how she was enjoying the holiday, and to top all that off, she tried calling him many different times during the past 7 days that she has been off from school with no answer from him, only his answering machine. I felt so bad for her because even though he was rotten to me, and to "us" as a family, she still loves him, and rightly so, it's her dad. I kept reminding her that he might have been busy, or maybe he would call her back, but she got nothing. No amount of words from me will ever make this up, and even though it's just a phone call, he is only 10 minutes away and he really has no excuse for not visiting or calling. What a lovely daughter he is missing out on !!!